Work Needs to Feel Good to be Good

I was traveling recently to a couple of cities in Europe. I was not expecting the trip to be quite as nostalgic. At each airport and each city, I felt this wave of memory flood through of a previous life and career in Corporate Tech. I would travel all the time, I lived with a suitcase packed and my passport on me. I had teams and clients all over the world and would travel regularly to visit and steer and cultivate them all. It was such a badge of honor and position to me, the fact that I had that life, that my position was such that required that amount of travel. In that traditional Corporate world I was living the dream, there was prestige attached to what I produced, the level of work I did, dedication measured in hours and miles. I had a lot of authority, that I used to make people work.

This is not my life now. Today I work for a truly feminine business, designed, operated and offering value through the felt sense. Things need to feel good to be good, unlike my experience of do as I say or else. I think sometimes people might think that feminine means chaotic, out of control, overly emotional, things that in the Corporate world are completely illegal. These qualities appear threatening to good business, this in fact is false. These qualities are raw power and they feel threatening because they have been suppressed and eradicated, instead of being repurposed as fuel and power.

Organic Erotic does just that, it takes all those discarded qualities and power and uses it as fuel. Not only that our measurements our values our aims are to a deeper nourishment of all things process, people and customer alike. This does not equate to what say traditional corporate would have you believe, laziness, a lack of results, over emotionality - in fact the opposite, they are higher quality results, felt and remembered impact, greater care in every corner, precision of execution, a well of untapped resources - generally wasted on trying to suppress feminine qualities from the business arena.

As I sat at each gate waiting to board my various planes, I saw those women who used to be me, I noticed their business clothes, tight and formal with heels, I noticed their laptops and ear pieces as they didn’t stop for a 2nd to breath, Why? Well why would they when prestige was at the other end of managing another meeting while traveling and proving to everyone that they could do anything asked of them or not asked of them and more. The zoom smile that if you look closely is marked by an ever so slight down turn at the edges of the mouth, and never reaches the eyes.

I remembered the hollow feeling of that smile and the constant strain in my voice, scalp, neck and shoulders. I remember the excuse of feeling proud that I’m so dedicated, that my clients are performing and happy so therefore I am of great value. I remember aching for a drink any chance I could get to numb the pain of lack of actual real connection, but never admitting that was what it was in case the whole thing came crumbling down.

I sat and waited, breathing deeply. Feeling the soft cotton feeling of my light powder blue basic rub my arms and chest as I breathed, purposely picked for traveling and for that exact reason. I looked at my phone not to join a meeting or worry about emails I might have missed, but to see messages from friends and colleagues as they started their day with pictures of themselves getting into their projects and sharing desires of what they would like to bring to their day and this business.

The contrast is vast. A feminine founded, led, operated business is deeply different from a traditional corporate business, it does not compete with it, it simply is better for all people who come into contact with it. There is abundant joy and creativity inside it, because its values are founded in that. I’m grateful for the my smile that reaches my eyes, and doesn’t turn down at the edges. I’m grateful for the strain that has left my body as it’s relaxed into working for a company that speaks all my natural languages. I’m grateful to understand what true power is and that I possess it. I’m grateful to create from it and for that to be my job.